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It wears on my soul that I can no longer call myself a dancer. This huge part of my life slept soundly in bed while I got up and snuck out one morning… and I hate myself for it.
Now, going back is nearly impossible because my parent(s) forced me to go to college and get loans and be the “successful” person they “always expected” I would be.
It’s hard enough for me to be happy with the fucking mess that exists in my head, but every day I feel like my soul is being sucked out.

I’m years too late.

The years between eighteen and twenty-eight are the hardest, psychologically. It’s then you realize this is make or break, you no longer have the excuse of youth, and it is time to become an adult – but you are not ready.
― Helen Mirren (via bl-ossomed)